in the last 45 hours or so, i've been awake for the better part of 43 hours. how i feel at this very moment is one of ambiguity. i want to sleep because my mind thinks it's logical to do so. however my body seems to be able to run without my mind, because i was running and jumping all the way back home. this is the only reason why im still able to write this. being dropped from a caffeine high, being unable to recall when was the last time i had actually food other than biscuits like gaiety (gay tee) and anticol (sweets with red cum inside) guava juice (from nepal nonetheless) up n' go and crappy carrot and potato soup, the insulin spikes and lows have resulted in a more mental than chemical energy state. i can run or decide to collapse. the acid in my stomach threatens to devour my very insides, yet my insides threaten to throw OUT the acid which means i'll be doin throwing UP.
enough on the excellent physical and mental condition im experiencing, i would like to thank 2 really special girls that have lent shoulders, time, sweets, hot goss. and caring words to me while i've been runnin amok in my own time warped psyche. i might not be processing things very well at this time, but my HEART needs no thinking to FEEL the LOVE. :) thank you mystery angels. i'll get storebellies for you as soon as possible. then you can womit them out. ahh fack, shouldnt say that, makes me wanna womit.
right then. the question to ponder : to dream, or not to dream?