a weird mood sweeps over me. while melancholy grips me, there is a certain tingle i feel, an unseen energy source that urges me to explode in action. my mood is, as such, very unsettled. i feel poles within my body pulling and pushing together and apart, unable to make a choice.
no event has transpired to make me feel this way, yet something dark this way comes.
i hope if there's a storm i'm strong enough to brave it. i've been feeling most out of sorts since this long week in camp, i know not if i've much more for fighting.

when push comes to shove i'll not usually buckle under pressure. but a certain english saying about a camel and a straw comes into context...

what sparked this sensation in me, i've no idea. but i hope to see it through soon enough.